I felt like I wanted to change something, so I did. There was an avril lavigne song on here, which made me reluctant at first, but hey! You can delete things off these. Smart me, knowing soooo much about HTML code.

Well today was... erm boring. I have some work to do though. Of course I have to waste time some more though, all the more fun trying to finish shit @ 2 in the morning.

Some of my friends dressed up as the colors of the rainbow today, it was really kind of weird. Hey, w/e floats their boats. I'm torn @ the moment on which concert I want to attend, Green Day or Taking Back Sunday. Honestly, the only thing stopping me from Green Day is the cost... last concert was a shitload of moolah.

My attention span sucks.

Poor guy.... He's all being angsty @ the moment.

I try so hardBut all I do is cryI dont understandWhy do I even try?I love you so muchYet it hurts even moreWHY WONT YOU JUST TELL ME!?!?Instead of acting stubborn like you do...Are you trying to say fuck you ****?Go the hell away?Or is it just some messageI'll never understand todayThis makes me want to cryAnd as much as I force myself not tooI still feel the tears fallingHitting the ground beneath meSoaking my feet in silent sorrowI love you so muchAnd no matter what happens I refuse to give that upBut this bothers me so muchOver something so simpleI asked you a questionYou didnt want to answerI made a commentYou barely respondedI told you I loved youAnd you said 'yea'How the FUCK is that supposed to be reassuring?Am I just not seeing some new language where yea means I love you?Do you love me too?Or are you just so mad at me you dont know?Or maybe you just dont want to tell me?Or is this some game to test my love?Well fuck!Stop testing it!Its there!Sometimes I think more than yours...All these tests...Constantly asking...And then telling me you want to be single!?How am I supposed to be reassured!?I want to get past this...But you never even called...I asked you too...And you didnt...If there was something this bad happening to you I'd call before I could remember your numberBut instead I sit and waitWith this phone in my lapWondering if its ringWill bring me backI hate being where I amYet it seems to be my second homePlease save me with your loveI need you to save me *******...


very very looooooooong.

So I have a soccer game Saturday.... weeeeee. In Alpine @ 7am

I spent the night @ school for the band/cg sleepover. It was pretty fun, Dylan played video games and dodgeball most of the time and I played the electric guitar and slept. If you call getting pegged while inside a sleeping bag sleeping of course.

Apparently no one could see the BRIGHT BLUE sleeping bag that was right there on the gym floor near all the other sleeping bags. It was pretty funny cause the only time Dylan wanted to sleep was when it was time to clean up and get ready to go. He hopped on the flag box in the CG room and started sleeping on it. Then him and Nick started saying that Stephanie had a penis, which is something they could've kept to themselves ya know?

I'm tired, I want to go to the mall, but I'm tired. I have to babysit tomorrow. On Monday I have reserved the TV for my MARATHON of the tribe... Yes, I ditched Degrassi Canadians for Tribe New Zealanders. Ram is sexier than Marco, and he's not gay. They should have a gay character in The Tribe though..... hmmmmmm

OH YEAH, there was a brush fire today, Billy said it was the Cuyamaca Mt.s or something behind his studio (not right behind, but you could see all the smoke.)

Color guard double time. We had practice during class out @ the football field, and after school we had practice till 5 o'clock. Too many people decided to fuck up and drop the flags, so we had to do flag runs.
Now let me explain what flag runs are. They are not our normal 7 ft. flags, ooooooo no. They are HUGE RAINBOW FLAGS


So yeah. I got bored after practice, so I checked out the links people put in their info and I found David's g/f's journal. Very colorful. Then I found David's, and got amused by the Courtney Love comment. Now I am writing this horrid journal. I have to babysit on Sunday. People in my 5th period class suck, I'm quite glad that I didn't go today.